Officially ending my relationship with Sugar Babe - Reflections

[postmortem]

Today is 2nd March 2015. Am going to officially end my relationship with my current sugar babe. Of course, I would like to focus on the pleasant memories I had with her. But truth is, it's hard to deny that she did not live up to my expectations in many ways.

Regardless, I always believe in amicable partings and to leave open the possibility that we can continue to be friends even though our arrangement has ended. This SB was one whom I had a really serious crush on. Due to the short time we had together, I never had the chance to get as deeply involved with her as I did with 19-year old Alicia (see the link to my memoirs below in my signature). Nonetheless she will have a permanent place in my heart.

For want of a better name, let's call her Louise.

Louise reached deep into my soul and ripped it out. It was brutal at some level, yet exquisitely delicious on another level. Up till now I wonder how she did that. She had some magical quality to her that got me totally mesmerized from day one.

I never forget how, after the first time I met her, I went home in a daze, and spent the next three days frantically checking my WhatsApp every half an hour to see if she had chosen to contact me.

When she failed to contact me after three days, I was crestfallen. My first encounter with her had been so memorable and so unique. She was like no other escort I had ever booked in my entire life. It wasn't the sex. It was her magnetic, charming personality, and this aura of feminine sensuality that simply defies description. She just blew my mind away the first time I met her.

Louise is an escort at one of the more well-known agencies. Frankly if she works hard enough at her escorting profession she can really earn loads of money in a very short time. But I think escorting is not really for her. At least, not escorting in the usual sense of a guy going into the room and just having sex and then leaving without saying another word.

Louise is the type who is more suited to be a companion, a dinner date, a coffee buddy, a forbidden midnight fling, rather than just a mere sex toy for men to release their physical urges on. Treating her as just a piece of meat would be a royal injustice to her. It would be ignoring her charm, her flair for engaging you, the way she can surreptitiously insinuate herself into the deepest recesses of your mind, and with utter serendipity tear down all your barriers without you even realizing what was going on.

Louise was a once-in-a-lifetime experience for me. I don't think I will ever meet a girl quite like her ever again.

When I booked her the second time through the escort agency, I told her that I would like her to be my sugar babe. But it would not be until sometime later that we managed to agree on a specific arrangement. Some gals here in this forum know the price I had to pay to secure her (if you are one of them, please keep it confidential!). It is not the kind of price I would wish upon myself again.

Truth be told, I did learn a lot from Louise. I learned, for example, how to engage a person. Maintaining eye contact is extremely important. Express genuine interest in that person - every aspect of that person. Ask open-ended questions. Smile. Be positive. Be cheerful. Be enthusiastic. Inject feeling into what you say. Be expressive. Be warm.

Louise handled all of that with effortless ease. It was like engaging clients was second nature to her, something she was born with, something written into the very fabric of her DNA. I don't think Louise ever realized how much i learned from her just by watching her and listening to her, all mesmerized by her charm and her exquisite demeanour. I also don't think Louise ever realized just how much feeling and emotion she had elicited from me as well.

When I began the arrangement with Louise, I felt I was in heaven. But before long, I was rapidly brought down to earth as things did not go quite as planned. I don't think it will be wise to go into any specifics, but suffice it to say as time went on, I became disenfranchised with a certain lack of initiative on Louise's part.

Perhaps I will leave the story as that.

It was, however, because of Louise that I became enamoured to the idea of "sugar dating" or "compensated dating" - meaning hanging out and enjoying the companionship of a gal without necessarily having physical intimacy come into the picture. Of course, a small token of appreciation is arranged when the gal and I become comfortable with each other and wish to meet on a regular basis.

Louise has left a permanent mark in my life. Whenever I meet other gals, I invariably end up talking about her to them. She is someone who will occupy my thoughts and memories for a very long time to come.