[fallen11]

Seen many decent women married "cheongsters".
during dating already go special service.
wedding month meet fiance, come late 2h because still stuck in special service.
But still marry them anyway.
Whereas i see many decent guys out there dont get decent girls.

i would say its no one's fault. Just pure bad luck.
Not every marriage is gonna turn out fine.
Not everything will be fine in life.
Ups and downs are normal. This is life.

And u are not the only person who have suffered.
Probably even more people out there suffer fates worse than u had.
Just think how worse it could have been and how fortunate u already are in your case of misfortune.